Friday, September 25, 2009

more memes

Profession you are currently emulating: Shop keeper
Song you are currently obsessed with: Believe by Brooks & Dunn
Movie that you would tear down a building to see right now: G-Force
Food that makes you drool: Napoleans
Person you really miss: a couple people I can't name
Foreign place you wouldn't mind residing: Ireland
Favorite object/shape to see in the clouds: I don't look at the clouds
Part of your body that bugs you: my stomach
Random act you've always wanted to do: Can't think of any

Which guy would you choose? ... for the fun of it:
The one with huge sweat stains OR the one with brown teeth: Stains
The one whose laugh sounds like a squawk OR the one who snorts: Snorts
The one who puts ketchup on everything OR the one who only eats meal: Kethcup lover
The one who asked you who much you weigh OR the one who patted your butt: Butt patter
The one with hair like Godzilla OR the one who smells like Godzilla: Godzilla hair
The one with a beer belly OR the one with sweaty palms: Beer belly
The one who sneezed without covering his mouth OR the one who picked his nose: Nose picker
The one with the mullet OR the one with a neck-beard: Mullet
The one who wanted to watch Predator OR the one who wanted to watch Blade 2: Blade 2
The one who called you Cupcake OR the one who called you Babealicious: Babealicious

Favorite
Artsit: Jason Aldean
Band: Bon Jovi
Candy: Kit Kat
Dinosaur: Ginkgosaurus
Fairy Tale: Cinderella
Kool-Aid flavor: Yuck
Lullaby: Lullaby by The Dixie Chicks, I also like Wynken Blynken and Nod
Neighborhood: Mine
Old-pasttime: So many to choose from
Pasta: Seafood pasta with Angel hair pasta
Restaurant: The Koffee Kup Kafe in Arnold's Park, IA, they're caramel rolls are to die for
Superhero: Wolverine
Television show: Supernatural, or Third Watch
Yearly Event: state fair, even though I rarely get to go anymore
Zoo: The Chicago Zoo in Grant Park, I think that's the one Ross lives by.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Darling, I love you

I wanna go shooting. So much. I haven't been shooting since April, of course if you stop and think about it, the first time I'd been shooting since 2002 was last fall. But, I know when I miss something like this, I really like it. And I love shooting my rifle a lot better than shooting handguns. Probably because it has a scope on it and I can hit things with more accuracy.

I'm so jealous that Kevin got to go shooting on Labor Day. I'm also jealous that he got to check out the new Bass Pro Shop in Ankeny. Actually, I'm kinda pissed he checked it out without me. I so wanted to be with him when he got to see it, just because it sounded really interesting to me. I don't like sporting goods stores that much, but when they had a sneak peak on a local news station, it looked pretty cool. Actually I'm kinda pissed about what he did on Labor Day because between those 2 things, that would have been a fun day. But he was thinking about us and needed a couple days with his guy friends. I get that too, but...

Sunday, September 20, 2009

What a beautiful day

My mom kept saying this afternoon what a beautiful day it was. I agree with her now that my day is pretty much over.
It started at about 7:30 AM when I got up to check email. Kevin called me a little before 8 and asked if I wanted to go to HyVee's breakfast, we went, ate and came back. He took a shower and we entertained ourselves with a little extra curricular activity then he went to sleep and I went to mow the lawn. At about 1:15 when I was done with the lawn, I took a shower then me and dad went on the local home tour. We got done about 4 with that, I took a nap and then woke Kevin up and we had some more extra curricular activity and a shower. About 6 we picked dad up from campus and went to supper at Valentino's. Kevin left from there for work and dad I just got home.
Yes, it was a very beautiful day.

Friday, September 18, 2009

All I want to do o o o

I am so exhausted and sore. It seems like every part of my body hurts.
I worked the Sugarland concert last night, and I've decided I need new black shoes. I had fun though, I got to be the person to look through people's bags, that was a new thing we're starting this year. I did get rather annoyed with the number of people that joked about having guns and knives and stuff in their bag. I mean we all knew it was a joke, but do we really need to joke about it? What if I had found something like that in someone's bag? The joke would have gone real sour after that.
We also had some problems with the scanners last night. In order to get into events now, we scan the bar codes on all tickets, doesn't matter if you picked them up at the ticket office, got them mailed to you, or printed them off the Internet, they all have bar codes and we have to scan them all. If they don't scan, or a problem comes up on our scanners, we have to send the people to the ticket office, I know we had quite a few of those.
And then we had the smokers. Last July, a law was passed that states you can't smoke in public places. So, we had to tell everyone that when they came in and of course when they came to ask us at intermissions where they could go and smoke. I get so sick of people asking "Really?" No, idiot I just said that to see what your reaction was. One of the police officers I talked to said people were going into the bathrooms and smoking, I was wondering how long that would take. And we also had people stepping outside doors that we didn't have someone by and smoking, there was even one door propped open with a door stop. I do wonder if the door stop was for the door for the beer, because we sure had a lot of that coming in. Though I do find it kinda hard to enforce the law when I see other people that are supposed to do it watching people walk right by them and lighting up. (I'm not going to give specifics because someone will find out it's me and I don't need them on my ass. I have nothing against them except for that incident last night).
I also got to yell at and stop people on their way out the doors that wanted to take their alcohol with them. I got quite a few with that. I nabbed a girl that was trying to hide it under a shirt, she successfully hide it from one guy, but I caught her. I had another guy that had a full cup, probably 8 ounces, that he tried to walk out with, I stopped him told him he had to finish it or dump it, so he went back in. I kept my eye on him, it was a good thing because about 10 minutes later with about the same amount of beer he tried to walk out again. Then he gets all friendly with me, like that's gonna change my mind, and goes to hang out at the souvenirs table. I told my other door people to keep an eye on him. The last time he tried it, he walked over to me, handed the beer to me and left. He still hadn't drank much of it. Now, I don't know how much the beer costs, I think it's $6 or $7 a cup, but that's a big waist of money if you ask me.
You could definitely tell the people who get rushes while working concerts. One of the top guys in concessions came over and told us how he got to break up a fight, and you could so tell he loved it. I have to say I did get a little rush stopping the annoying guy with his beer.
One of my coworkers kept apologizing for having to look in people's bags. I don't apologize for doing my job, I don't think anyone should, if you feel that uncomfortable doing it, don't. And my coworker wasn't even assigned to look in people's bags, so they could have handed that job off to someone else. I mentioned how they shouldn't apologize about it, and they kinda turned a cold shoulder to me for the rest of the evening. Next time, I guess I'll keep my mouth shut. This coworker also didn't go after anyone who was leaving with alcohol, when that was in the instructions given to us. If you can't handle doing what you're asked, go do a different job. If you don't like being rude to people and making them follow the rules, maybe you should reconsider.
I know why my feet and legs hurt, though I'm not sure why my muscles in my armpits hurt, and I'm not quite sure why my head's all stuffed up. I can handle it though, I already took some aspirin and that has taken my headache away, but my feet still aren't liking it when I get up. So, my plans kinda changed for today, looks like I'm taking it easy for today. And I have to get some better shoes for the Daughtry concert.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Driving and Jobs

Ya know, I don't mind getting up early when I have somewhere to go, but getting up at 7AM (or like today, getting woken up by pounding at 7AM) is not working for me.
Our house is getting a new roof, and in order to not be on it when it's wicked hot out, the guys are here at 7 every morning. Since I live on the 3rd floor, there's no way I'm not waking up at 7. I miss having to be at the bookstore at 8 every day and being busy all day. Granted I did not like getting home and falling asleep shortly thereafter, but I love being busy all day. I am searching for a full-time job, but I don't know what I want to do, I know what I don't mind doing, but I don't know what I want to do with my life.
Last Monday, Kevin and I had a talk, I had a gut feeling he was going to dump me. He didn't, he said he felt like I didn't want to do anything and that I needed to find a full-time job that was a career. He said I wasn't pushing myself very hard work-wise. Which is true, once I found the job at the games store last summer, I was just happy to find a job and kinda backed off on my job search. I am very happy to have the part-time job at the bookstore, but it's only 2-3 weeks every six months. And I really do love being away from my house every day. My mom said maybe I needed to do some career placement tests, sure why not. I love how Kevin told me I need to be looking at jobs outside of here, but I'm sure if I found a really cool one across the country, he wouldn't want to move with me. I think that would be really cool though, find one in a place I've never been and have to move and start all over in a new place, I'd love that challenge, but I'd also be afraid to do it.
Also, in order to be looking at jobs outside of here, I'd have to get a driver's license, which Kevin really wants me to do. So, I went driving with my mom last Saturday, it was fun, but my mom still had that tone, the irritated but I can't say too much tone because then she'll think I'm mad at her tone. I was going 14 as my top speed around this parking lot, and I thought that was fast. It reminded me how much I don't like driving, but I'd do anything for Kevin. Plus, just because I get the license, doesn't mean I HAVE to drive. I don't have a car, and I don't really have money to get a car, so....
I was actually thinking, it'd be so fun to get an old Nova or Mustang and fix it up so it was gorgeous again. That would be sooo fun.
I was thinking that I doubt Kevin would consider doing art a real job, even if I did get to the point where I could pay all my bills and have money left over. I think to him, it would require someone else paying my health insurance and getting out of the house all day. Though I would love to get to the point in my art that I could pay all my bills that would be great.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Smoky Mountain Rain

You know how I love meme's. I stole this from a friend on facebook.

1. Put your iPod or iTunes library, or MP3 player etc... on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got this from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Rodeo - Garth Brooks

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Play the Game - Queen

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
The Long Way Around - Dixie Chicks

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Life Happened - Tammy Cochran

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Heartbreak Town - Dixie Chicks

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Lucky - Britney Spears

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Head Over Feet - Alanis Morissette

WHAT IS 2+2
She's Got the Rhythm (And I Got the Blues) - Alan Jackson

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
I'm Holding On To Love (To Save My Life) - Shania Twain

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me, Kill Me - U2

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
She's A Hottie - Toby Keith

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Love Train - Big & Rich

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Requiem (The Fifth) - Trans Siberian Orchestra

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Like The Rain - Clint Black

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
High Enough - Damn Yankees

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Jetsons Theme

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Walk Like An Egyptian - Bangles

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET
She Was - Mark Wills

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Goodbye To You - Scandal

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Hear Me - Kelly Clarkson

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Don't Be Stupid (You Know I Love You) - Shania Twain

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
For the Money - Montgomery Gentry

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Thank God for Kids - Kenny Chesney

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Music Man - Reba McEntire

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED
(It's Hard) Letting You Go - Bon Jovi

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Deep Deep Trouble - The Simpsons

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Every Now and Then - Garth Brooks

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Loose Change - Bruce Springsteen

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Christmas in Dixie - Kenny Chesney

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Chrome - Trace Adkins

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

Everything's gonna be alright

I bought bananas a couple weeks ago to take with me to the bookstore for lunch, they went brown, so I decided to make banana bread with them. Bad idea.
I got a recipe from my mother and had to go to the grocery store for: eggs, baking powder, baking soda, lemon juice, milk, and pam. I accidentally bought 2 boxes of baking powder instead of one each of baking powder and baking soda. I didn't notice this until I had everything in the oven and was putting away my ingredients. How is it I always seem to mess stuff up?
Anyhow, my bread was already in the oven in little bread pans on top of a cookie sheet. Good thing they're on a cookie sheet because I just checked them halfway through their cooking time, they're overflowing onto the cookie sheet. I honestly don't know what baking powder and soda do, so I don't know how royally I've screwed up the bread, we'll see. I'm figuring I filled the pans too full, but I only had 4 pans and I didn't want to go find something else to put the rest in, so I knew about that, I guess I didn't know how much they would rise. I also added almonds instead of walnuts, just to try something out. Kevin's always telling me to try stuff out, we'll see how this is.
I kinda hope I didn't screw things up too bad, because banana bread sounds really good.

I was so proud of myself as I was mixing the stuff up. I was thinking I should start my Christmas list and put mixing bowls and cookie sheets on it.

Monday, September 07, 2009

I can't be held responsible, she was touching her face

It's been a very exhausting day. I feel like I've been crying for 3/4 of it.
It was supposed to start out with Kevin coming over this morning. But, he never did, I think he went and partied with his buddies. I hadn't talked to him since Saturday night. I was worried, figured something happened to him, so I took the bus over to his house, where both of his trucks were sitting. He wasn't asleep on his bed, his roommate's girlfriend said he left in a red truck (one of his friends). I walked home, on the verge of tears for 3 miles. I called him during my walk time (probably the 6th time this morning), he finally picked up saying he was at his friend's house, and I knew the only way he was there at that time with both his trucks at his house was if he didn't have to work last night and hung out with them. When I told him I went to his house because I was worried, he didn't say anything, I let him go so he could sleep.
By the time I got home, I was exhausted and pissed. I'm not quite sure what I did all afternoon. I called him again at 4 asking if he planned to go to a picnic in my neighborhood that I mentioned this morning. I called again at 5, 5:14 and then 5:30 when he finally picked up. I asked him about the picnic to which he replied he'd forgotten all about it. I found that hard to believe seeing as how I left him a message at 4, but didn't say anything. He said he was in Des Moines hanging out with his friends again. He said he might come over tonight. I don't believe him, that's what he said about this morning on Saturday.
I know he's been brooding over something since he got back from an offroading excursion last Tuesday, he's been different. He hasn't said anything, but you know about that female intuition thing.
I had a horrible dream last night about how he was going to break up with me and he didn't give a damn about my feelings. I started thinking this morning it was true when I couldn't find him at his house.
I bought this cute little butterfly thing for us to enjoy, I was waiting for him last night and this morning to show it to him, and then again from 2 to 5:30. I don't know if he'll get to see it.

I understand he wants to hang out with his friends, but what's so hard about picking up the phone and telling me that? Why can't he say he's sorry (even if he's not) for making me worry, for "forgetting" about the picnic. I don't know if I'm being paranoid or not, but it really hurts.

Friday, September 04, 2009

No need to worry, no need to cry

I am so sick of people telling me I need to find a full-time job. As if I'm not looking now. I found a posting for a full-time temporary job for the middle of Sept to January, that I'm planning to apply for, but people never seem to be satisfied with me. If it makes me happy why can't they just back off?
I'm done at UBS now, hoping to help out next semester. I was complaining to Kevin about how sick I was of the students swiping their debit/credit cards before I was ready for them. The cash registers don't take the card until we get to the end and tell it debit or credit. He was saying how I needed to find a full-time job so I wouldn't have to do the job anymore, I love the job, but some things just bother me, especially when I get it every day. I don't understand why he gets to complain about his job and I can't. I love it how when I worked at the art shop it was ok, because I had a steady paycheck, I might not have always happy with it, but I had a paycheck.
I'd love to have a lot of temp jobs like JLo has in Monster-in-Law. I love how she's set up in that movie, and she's happy with what she does. I'd love to have that, like now, I like what I do in all 3 (2 now) jobs, but because it's not full-time, it doesn't count I guess. Is it possible to be happy with your job and make enough money to get by?
I do want to be independent, I don't want to depend on other people. And it's not like I'm not trying to find a full-time job, it's just that there aren't a lot out there right now. And I don't really want to work in some other town (granted I can't right now because I don't have a driver's license, but I don't want to drive quite a distance to work anyway), but I really don't want to have to do that.

I hate how Kevin always tries to change me. Granted it's worked for a few things, I'm eating healthier, I'm drinking way more water, I'm spending less money, and at the moment, I'm working on cleaning my apartment and I would like to keep it clean, sometimes it just doesn't seem to be enough. Why do people insist on trying to change me? Aren't I good enough for them?